Hello, Besides financial matters, there is another aspect of my life that has been a source of confusion for quite some time. I find myself drawn to women, as I attempted to date a man but quickly lost interest upon seeing his physical attributes, which left me feeling uncomfortable and disinterested. I have experimented with intimacy with women and found it enjoyable, although I have never been in a serious relationship with a woman, despite flirting with them. I recall engaging in inappropriate behavior with a friend when I was around 7 years old, and later kissing a girl from school when I was 11 or 12. My exposure to adult content began at the age of 12, when I had unsupervised access to a phone at home. I began exploring my sexuality through self-pleasure at that age. At 13, my mother confronted me about her dream in which she believed I was a lesbian. She was deeply upset and warned me about the perceived consequences and societal taboos associated with it. Her reaction caused me significant distress, to the extent that I contemplated suicide due to feeling unjustly accused. Throughout high school, my close circle of friends consisted of lesbians, and I found myself drawn to watching lesbian content online. While I acknowledge the addictive nature of this material, I have managed to limit my consumption and can go for extended periods without viewing it. Despite never having been in a romantic relationship with a man, I harbor negative feelings towards them due to perceived shortcomings in their behavior and responsibilities. Reflecting on my experiences, I view my attraction to women as a source of personal struggle and societal stigma. I have considered the possibility of dating a woman to better understand my own feelings and preferences.
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